by Anya Chaplygina Higley
I was 18 years old when I was baptized. I was young, eager, open, and so spiritual. I lived for the gospel, loved it and carried the burning Spirit in me all the time. I lived in the big city of St. Petersburg, Russia.
Things were changing in those years, and there were a lot of poor people who couldn't make ends meet. Among those were elderly people, living on little pensions from government. All of a sudden within a couple of years there were a lot of beggars standing at entrances and exits of subway stations.
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I lived alone, working at the city maintenance office, and my paychecks were very small. My fridge was always empty, and I lived off potatoes, pasta, and grains. There were a lot of days when I had very little to eat.
One day I had a little bit of money (a 5 ruble bill). I still had a week till my next paycheck, and that was all the money I had till then. I wanted to buy a treat for myself--a tube of sweet cottage cheese. That would last me a couple of days, and it was my favorite.
I was heading somewhere in the city. As I was exiting the subway station, I saw many older people standing near the exit with their hands folded, begging for coins. I kept walking past them, as many other people did as well. In the corner of my eye--far and deep in the corner of the station--I caught a glimpse of an old woman. She was tiny and hunchbacked, wearing a scarf on her head. It looked as if she was pressing herself into the corner, ashamed of what she was doing--begging for money.
I kept walking through the doors outside. Suddenly, I felt the Spirit wash over me. It was like a hot, burning flame that took over my chest.